I was in a panic. I was searching frantically in my bedroom. I could not find my wedding ring anywhere. I was sure I had put it on my dresser the night before. I was looking, hunting, searching, throwing clothes everywhere. “I can’t be late for work,” I thought to myself. I needed to find my wedding ring!
How did my wedding ring disappear?
Where could I have put it?
How can this be happening? I was in the process of being laid off from my job and the last thing our family could afford is a wedding ring.
I took a deep breath and stopped searching. It was in that moment, I recalled a snippet from a radio show when a lady was missing her car keys and she decided to pray and ask God for help. She shared that after she prayed God gave her wisdom where to find her missing keys.
I realized, I needed to stop stressing and start praying!
I sat down on my bed, bowed my head and began to simply pray, “Lord please help me find my missing wedding ring.”
As soon as I uttered those words to the Lord, He spoke something back to me that I was not expecting.
“Do you trust me?”
I was completely taken back by the Lord’s response. As soon as He asked me that question I yelled out one small but significant word.
“What?” I thought to myself, how could I even say that to the Lord. Of course, I trusted Him. Why would I say that? How could I not trust God? I grabbed my keys, put on a smile like everything was okay and kissed my little guys goodbye. But everything was not okay, and there was something so wrong deep within my soul screaming out in utter shame. “Why do I NOT trust God?”
As I drove to work, I looked to the right lane and saw a large white semi truck. On the semi truck, there were large black letters on the side of the truck that said PS207. Something about those letters and numbers seemed so odd, yet familiar. Why would these be on a semi truck? I sat in silence trying to figure out what the letters and numbers meant plus disheartened about my new realization that I did not trust God.
As I walked into work I wondered if the numbers and letters were a verse in the Bible. I had no clue, but I knew God was up to something. As I googled PS 207, I found out the verse was real! Psalm 20:7 says,
“Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.”
I sat back in complete awe of God. He loved me so much that even though I admitted I did not trust Him, He still wanted to speak to me. The Lord used a semi truck and a wedding ring to teach me about trusting God that day. He gave me Psalm 20:7 to build up my faith in why I needed to TRUST in Him alone! He was telling me to TRUST Him no matter what.
I lost my wedding ring
I was losing my job
my baby was having heart issues inside the womb
we only had $30 to buy food for the week
we were not sure how our mortgage would be paid
my marriage was having problems
I was dealing with haunting memories of my childhood
The “If’s of Life” were endless, but God was showing me through a lost wedding ring and a semi truck that I needed to TRUST in the name of the Lord our God! And since God showed up for me in such a tangible way, I was up for the challenge. I let go of the shame of not trusting Him that day. After that, I began to be honest with myself and God.
I started to ask the tough questions, “Why did I not trust the Lord? Why did I struggle with not trusting Him even when I wanted to trust Him?” And guess what friends? Within time, the Lord showed me why I struggled to TRUST Him. The answers were not easy to hear, but my walk with Him became so much deeper than ever before.
The word trust is a small word but has such huge meaning. TRUST is the basis for allowing God to work in our lives when life makes no sense. Trust is the glue that holds us onto GOD when things are falling apart.
It has been over five years since I saw that white semi truck on the road and so much has changed in my life. That day will forever be etched in my mind. Through it all, I became secure in HIM because He showed me how to put my trust in Him alone, even when I had no clue I was not trusting Him.
Maybe you are having a trust issue with the Lord just as I encountered. If so, ask yourself and God, “Do I truly trust in the Lord?” He will answer you, my friend! It might not be the same way He spoke to me, but He will speak to you. My journey with trusting God is far from over, but I have the confidence that what He allows in my life is ultimately for my good even if it does not feel good at that present time.
Can I pray with you right now?
Father God, we humbly ask You to show us if we have a trust issue with you. We want to trust you just like you tell us in Psalm 20:7. We want to trust in the name of the Lord our God! Help us to do that with your divine power. Let us be brave and courageous to deal with the hard issues within our soul. We need you Lord. Please let us hear your Holy Spirit today as we seek you with our whole heart. We ask this in the precious name of Jesus. – Amen.
And just in case if you’re still wondering if I found my ring? Yes, I did and it was when I wasn’t even looking for it. Don’t you love how God does that?! Maybe I should write a post about finding the wedding ring now 😉